Disillusioned I'm poor. I'm sick. I'm in danger of failing out of college. I have no motivation to do any form of work, be it school or otherwise. I feel like every day is a re-run of a shitty episode of an even shittier show. I hate almost everyone, and almost everything. I see all of this shit that's supposed to be important to me, and I just don't care. I can't even pretend to.
I'm hoping a series of psychadelics will help me to transform and see things in a way that I've yet to see them. If that fails, then I guess I'm just shit out of luck.